hurt

ryan and i broke up tonight.

too much damage, too much pain, too much trying.

i think i'm most scared of waking up in the morning...

that feeling when you've just woken,

you have a faint, distant feeling of something being wrong,

but you can't remember.

and then you do.

you remember.

and it doesn't go away.

i don't know how many mornings like that i will have,

but one day i'll wake up and remember that i am alive,

and that everything will be okay.