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Thursday, July 24, 2008

who i am

it's weird, being in a new place where no one knows who i am.
i'm able to be the juli i want to be.
i am not covered by anxiety, by pain, by shame.
i am just me and i reveal my story piece by piece,
but mostly i just be.
it is surreal...
sometimes it's as if i'm outside of my body looking in.
i see this happy girl that is carefree, without worry, honest, and spontaneous.
i didn't know this juli existed.
kinda makes me sad that i didn't know she could exist,
and it's hard not to wonder what my life will be like if i choose to go back home to the states.
i'm already forgetting the faces of people back home...
their voices, their smells, their touch.
i wonder if they remember me clearly still,
if they think about me from time to time,
and i wonder if they will recognize me when i get home.
somehow i'm not even sure that i'll recognize myself.


Blogger Johannes said...

You're doing it again, Juli. Stop that now. You can wonder what they will think when your plane lands on US soil ;-)

12:19 AM  
Blogger juli said...

i am so glad i get to see you in a few days. maybe you can knock some sense into me :)

1:08 AM  
Blogger Jim said...

fun stuff. i remember a time in my life that was like yours. it was not in europe, it was in north carolina. no one knew me. i tried on a lot of different things and found some of my voice. it changed me forever.

stay the course until this work is done.

6:19 PM  

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