girl growing

and a space for her to play in

Sunday, February 03, 2008

shaky ground

'i'm thinkin' out loud and i'm talking in circles without takin' a pause
i am overstimulated and intoxicated by the applause
i'll be stepping on land mines and running straight into things 
and i am broken down,
i am broken up
and there's no one to save me
so sorting through junk mail and i'm sorting out lies i've come to believe 
all my fingers are shaking as i rip the nail off with my teeth
i got good friends around me
so close i could throw a stone
oh, i have trouble lately when i'm self medicating and alone
and i guess i'm taking this slow
i'm on shaky feet on shaky ground
and i guess i've got a lot more to know
about leaving the battlefields alone
so i'm calling on God, i'm calling my doctor, and nearly everyone i know
they all tell me the same thing,
they say it's the only way i'm gonna grow
oh sometimes i believe them,
still i am overwhelmed by everything small
oh, it's not for lack of blessings 
i've got no lack anything at all
and i guess i'm taking this slow
i'm on shaky feet on shaky ground
and i guess i've got a lot more to know
about leaving the battlefields alone
all of my life i have been having these crazy dreams
all of my life i have been living in extremes
i am neither the smartest or the slowest, 
the bravest or most weak
oh, and in truth i am just somewhere in between
and i guess i'm taking this slow
i'm on shaky feet on shaky ground
i guess i've got a lot more to know
about leaving the battlefields alone
hallelujah'
-molly venter